Just relax and prefer to behave and do as ordered instead of creatively distinguishing yourself and sticking out. The former works better.

My day started out okay, the week passed really fast, perhaps because I had a day off on monday. Ordered a great pizza yesterday, doing steady work today, nothing pressing, regular copywriter/content stuff I always do.

Montaigne - Essays

I suggest you use it work as you like without fear and experiment trying to fight conservative powers at your job to make it more exciting and to gain respect

If you don't like it, make it an excuse to risk

just today I talked with a colleague of mine and told her that you try and do the best work possible and put a lot of effort in it and will be considered shit by others. And, you do a sloppy job with minimum effort and it will be regarded as awesome. Is it luck? Even if you like what you do and are passionate about it, there's just element of chance, though "luck" is never a thing to consider or even mention at meeting and in plans. Common consensus holds it that you you should always "try and do the best work possible and put a lot of effort in it" but that's just not the case since when everything's awesome nothing is awesome and doing something repeatedly is in between shit and awesome. You just gather feedback on what works and try to repeat it and stop doing what has negative feedback (you change according to feedback)

smth like that

your closing is absolutely true as the majority of all of us "fake it till we make it"

This sort of fake it till you make it incorporates passing the hot potato as well. Someone will get left holding it and burn.

logically, the potato will cool down over time, so every next holder will be less likely to burn

I think it heats up. Somehow the delay tends to make the problem grow

so what? any feedback or engagement is valuable

even yours made me feel better