Have you discussed this with your doctor? If not, I would schedule an appointment ASAP. It's possible that medication might be able to help significantly. If it does help, it could be that it helps you enough to turn things into a more manageable situation at work. This might not be your long-term optimal solution, but it could make life less miserable until you do find your long-term optimal.
Thanks! Fortunately I'm not that bad to the point of being miserable. 3 years ago I tried lexapro for 3-6 months. It worked somewhat but was more of a bandaid. Beyond medication, I'm not quite sure what else a doctor can do that a councillor can't provide.
It was the best of times (WP5.1) and the worst of times (first versions for Windows). I used WordPerfect for DOS 5.1 extensively and it was a joy to use. It was not WYSIWYG, but it was fast, stable, and very capable. A couple of years later I used one of the early versions of WordPerfect for Windows (I don't recall the version number) and it was a complete disaster. It crashed very often. Hence, my love/hate with WordPerfect.
The reason for the horrible Windows version was threefold: 1) Culture, 2) Hubris and 3) OS/2.
From Almost Perfect [1], the book linked to in the article:
> WordPerfect Corporation was not a platform for personal achievement, a career ladder to other opportunities, or a challenging opportunity for personal improvement. The company did not put the needs of the individual ahead of its own. The company was not concerned about an employee's personal feelings, except as they related to the company's well-being.
> WordPerfect Corporation was not intended to be a social club for the unproductive. While other companies might condone many personal or social activities at the office, ours did not. Things like celebrating birthdays, throwing baby showers, collecting for gifts, selling Tupperware or Avon, managing sports tournaments, running betting pools, calling home to keep a romance alive or hand out chores to the children, gossiping or flirting with co-workers, getting a haircut, going to a medical or dental appointment, running to the cafeteria for a snack, coming in a little late or leaving a little early, taking Friday afternoon off, and griping about working conditions were all inappropriate when done on company time. Even though these activities were condoned by many businesses across the country, we felt there was no time for them at WordPerfect Corporation.
Sounds like a lovely place to work! Oof. Compare this to Apple or Microsoft or a ton of other Silicon Valley companies. It's no wonder they couldn't find developers:
> In January [1990] Microsoft offered to make us a beta test site for Windows 3.0. We accepted their generous offer, but did little more than look Windows over. In hindsight, it is easy to see we should have done much more right away. At the time, we could justify not doing a Windows 2.0 version in favor of completing WordPerfect 5.1 for DOS, but it is now difficult to defend our further delays. Unfortunately, we did not have any experienced Windows programmers inside the company to form a development team, and there were not many outside the company to recruit.
> In May Microsoft shipped Windows 3.0, and our worst fears became a reality. Just at the time we were decisively winning in the DOS word processing market, the personal computing world wanted Windows, bugs and all. To make matters worse, Microsoft Word for Windows was already on dealer shelves and had received good reviews. That little cloud on the horizon, which had looked so harmless in 1986, was all around us, looking ominous and threatening. IBM's strength and size were no protection. Not even an elephant could ignore the impending storm.
> May 31, 1990 was a sad day in WordPerfect Corporation's history. I wrote a press release announcing that we were postponing our OS/2 product, so we could produce a Windows version of WordPerfect as quickly as possible. I wrote, "While we still are strong supporters of OS/2, we have decided to test and release the Windows version of WordPerfect before the OS/2 version. The reasons for the schedule change have to do with the expected delays in version 2.0 of Presentation Manager and particular requests from our customers. This change should move up the release of our Windows product by three to four months and will delay our release of a PM product by four or five months."
The book is free online and pretty interesting if you like histories of early computing. It's definitely on the list with the more famous ones like Soul of a New Machine.
2 things: (1) trying to find a job, and (2) continuing work on my software.
I've been working on a new software product (native Windows) that is for analysis of SQLite databases. It's geared towards non-technical and slightly technical who may not know anything about SQL. The software includes an ER diagram, ability to browse table data, query building, and charting (bar, column, histogram, line, pie, scatter). Trying to get it finished up so that it can be released (hopefully in next few weeks).
Very nice on both! I've long had an affinity for non-mainstream programming languages (mostly those with Wirth lineage). I wish there were more projects that used them.
My problem is the amount of money I would make in a year selling the software I make for my hobbies would likely be less than one paycheck at a normal job.
I voluntarily left the corporate world in spring of 2024. I already had a part-time handyman business going so I just took it full-time. I also started developing my own software product (soon to be released).
I'm still working on development of a native Windows application for data analysis of SQLite databases. It's geared towards non-technical (or only slightly technical) users and allows queries to be easily made without knowing SQL. Additionally, it easily lets the user quickly create charts from the queried data (bar, column, histogram, line, pie, scatter). Development is nearly complete and hoping to put in the hands of testers within the next couple of weeks. Also trying to decide on name for the product so that I can start development of website for it.
My more optimistic take is that if they take years to resolve claims, then passengers could (should be able to?) rightfully claim more damages for the hardship in those delays. It saves them money overall by providing compensation early without prejudicing future claims. And that's of benefit to those impacted, too.
