"But what if I am the problem? " - I feel you're being cruel to yourself here. You mentioned on another thread the possibility of having ASD. If were you, I'd pursue getting assessed for that, because if you do have it, then its an explanation for stuff that might've gone wrong at work and a label that you could wear sometimes in so that people might be a bit more understanding. Some people are actually kind. ;) In a previous workplace I had a colleague, who was a genius, well, actually a tortured genius. He obviously had ASD, but no-one discussed it. Management gave him a hard time for turning up to work late because he had insomnia, and worried about stuff. Even though he stayed late to make up the hours. And all the rest of us didn't mind, we knew he was a bit "different" but we all liked and respected him, and if he needed to come in late to cope with life, then fine, the rest of us didn't mind being mandated to be there by 9.30 and him be exempted. In the end he got laid off, amongst a bunch of people including myself. I think he got hard done by really, and I sincerely hope he didn't blame himself or say that he was the problem. His behaviour was a little bit nuts sometimes, but... everyone kind of understood and accepted him... except sadly it seems, the management. If your management is like that too, well, that's a pity, but telling at least peers that had had ASD (if you actually have it) could help. As a non-American, I don't advocate therapists. The rest of the world we just go for a beer with our friends , have a good rant about stuff and feel much better and/or empowered by someone else's different take on things.